My fragile heart was broken more than once before
I dont think I can endure pain anymore.
They dont know how or what I feel inside
Through my smiles I cry
Through my apparent happiness I die.

I wake up every night to see the state I am in
Its like an endless fight I can never win
How can I even want to break this wall around me
How can I open up to let you see

There is so much to lose and yet less to gain.
To give my heart freely, unhindered, would be insane.
Walking hand in hand with a man
Respect all I give, all I dare, all I can.

Feelings of confusion tackle my heart and mind.
Entrapped by my own love, my past never able to be left behind.
Making wishes on stars hoping you'd understand my heart,
Wishing that with every touch I wouldn't feel the need to part.


Penned by my hand on the 19th of Aequitas, in the year 469 AD.