I almost took my life last night
One I've fought so hard to keep
Then all this crying and lack of sleep
I wake to the light and it seems dark

I tried to know the heart of you
Hold your heart and look inside
But all I saw was hidden lies
One's that hurt too much to find

I bore my pain in quiet sorrow
I hoped you'd tell the truth..tomorrow
I listened and nodded, I held and I loved
But I could only bare so much before enough, was enough

I loved you, I truly loved you
And after trying to help you to open up
I'm left with only hurt and pain
And the uncertain memory of your name

I would have walked beside you
I would have faithfully held your hand
I would have been your only and your every
If only you had...

Nothing can change what has passed
I wish trust was something I retained
But not after this night, this agony I know
You cannot erase the hurt of this pain

So I have not raised the knife
Nor have I felt the noose
For in the center of this bleeding heart
Is someone who loves and who loved you true

We'll walk a separate path now
We'll never meet, face to face
But know I will hurt for you, always
Day..upon day

And if you ever find what you want
And if you ever choose to speak the truth
If you ever desire to give a shit
Give it to someone else love

Our time is through


Penned by my hand on the 4th of Letum, in the year 561 AD.