See how much richer we'd be if I was allowed to read guild posts? Though
I'm sure I'll get to hear about them from those who are loyal to me. And
I'll save the name calling and such for GTS, because I'm sure I'll get
to hear about a lot of that too. Certain things are more important than
naming me a whiny brat. Anyways...

I didn't start questioning your leadership abilities until people
started coming to me about them. Those in the guild, and those outside
of the guild. I had a lot of faith in you when I was guild rank one and
on probation, and you insisting I support you over Barassah back in the
day. Hence the reason I was pleased when I saw you gained guildmaster
position.

Time went on, and I saw a lot of things that could have been done, and
weren't. So I pushed to try and help you with them. I did. I did a lot
of work in cleaning up some of the less noticable, yet most annoying,
little bits of this guild. I was glad to hear what I thought were
promises to be fulfilled. I was as anxious as the rest of our guildmates
to see the guild operating as best as it could.

When the first "war" with the Idrasi's came about, I watched you inguild
and promote those that you felt would gain you "fighting power" over
their guild. Then months wore on and all I heard about was how Juran was
your old mentor, and you'd love to see him taken down by his old
protege. I got worried. I was dying for your old mentor. Not for the
guild.

Yes, I was in Lord Aesir's Order then. I also learned a lot about War,
through the Order and through the war we were in. Disrespect the name of
the Lord all you want, there's something to be learned through every
experience. I'm proud of what I learned. I won't ever deny that. You
posting publically like me being in His Order is a bad thing is bound to
rise more problems than just myself.

When our guildmates wanted it the war to end, who pushed to have it end?
And at the same time, who tried, in most embarrasing ways, to persuade a
certain Idrasi to do things your way? I can certainly say my actions
during that time were far more honourable than yours. That's besides the
point. I got a message saying you were proud of me, and at the same time
a tap on the hand that I didn't leave it for you to do. Forgive me for
doing what the guild wanted.

Like that you did then, and will do now, is hide in Stavenn during a war
you pushed to create. There's facets of War that I'd be most willing to
tell you about, and anyone for that matter who would care to hear. As
for the accusation that I don't do a thing for this guild anymore, I
think the prime example would be the countless months I've spent trying
to have a conversation with you about probation requirements. I haven't
once had a full conversation with you about them. Good thing I kept a
copy of what I wrote in my journal, since I was kicked out of the clan I
posted it in. I have faith Matty will pursue what I was trying to
accomplish though. Hopefully he can keep your attention for long enough
to hear what you think about it.

As for me bringing up your hatred towards Alakshmi and Asyrin, I only
bring up the truth. You've ranted enough about how that's all Alakshmi
did, ever. But how can you clarify yourself differently from what you're
doing now? I was your ally, Vega. I tried hard to help you. I questioned
you when you were listening to the advice of rustling branches. You fed
me a line of crap to make me shut up and continued on with your ways. As
for that, I lost any respect I ever had for you. I'm sorry. I'm sick of
seeing a guild being run for just you two.

I got reckless after I watched my guild be thrown to the wolves. I did
raid. I did a lot of things that I regret. I meantioned that in a
previous post. I was watching the guild I love be flip-flopped all over
the place while you decided what to do for your beloved bush. I watched
you drag us down with you. Hence why I left Stavenn. I needed an open
door. I needed something new before I went completely sane. Insanity is
a virtue. Makes you see the truth in all the madness.

Outguild me or not after this election. I'm leaving either way if I
lose. I won't continue to be humiliated every other month when you
change your mind and hide in Stavenn while your guildmates are slain for
something you started. Good luck with it. I'll have no part in it. The
guild needs to be strengthened, and war is not the way to make this
guild what it could be. I hope the leaves on your office plant rustle
wisely, because those who once thought the world of you are turning
away.


It's only after you've lost everything, that your free to do anything.

Drillia Argyle

Penned by my hand on the 24th of Aequitas, in the year 442 AD.